Friday, November 21, 2008
Week Two, Convalescing at Woodrose
This place is a Mecca for the well to do able bodied. It sports a gorgeous swimming pool, tennis, badminton, ping pong, and racket ball courts, with full weight room and aerobic exercise equipment. It’s a beautifully laid out complex, with long walkways of black granite tile, gardens, stairways, and something we were really looking forward to after a week of hospital food, an excellent restaurant.
My appetite had returned. That first breakfast of fresh squeezed grape juice, omelet, toast and jam was gobbled down with gusto. I’ve been an avid coffee drinker for decades but somehow in India, I’d lost my taste for it and shifted to a bonafide tea drinker.
My only responsibity here was to heal. I returned to the hospital daily for PT. I was transported via taxi. It was less than two miles, but what a daily ride this was for me. The traffic in Bangalore is atrocious. The streets are clogged with cars, trucks, busses, rickshaw taxis, scooters, bicycles, cows, and ox drawn carts. It is pure madness. Pedestrians have no right of way. And as Ruth discovered, Bangalore has the worst side walks in India. The only way a pedestrian can cross a street is to find others and as a team, wind your way through the maize of traffic. Individually you’d be road kill but with three or four joined together you have a slightly better chance of reaching the other side in tact. This was not my fate to experience anything so daring. But just riding in a taxi through the throngs was a full day’s entertainment.
The PT at Wockhardt was challenging and just the spurt of energy I needed to recoup some of my waning strength. The ladies who guided me through the daily grind were young, fun loving and serious about the importance of establishing a good routine of strength and flexibility exercises. Everyday they pushed me a little harder. I seemed to be omproving most days, though still painful, but a few days were still excruciating; the pain in my knee was raw and unbearable. On those days they worked me a little easier. This would be a good model for the long haul of future rehab and healing.
Back at Woodrose, the dining was the highlight of the day. Great soups, salads, and spicy Indian cuisine were there for our dining pleasure three meals a day. Almost immediately we both started having “watery motion.” At first it was quite welcome to clear out the pipes from the week of hospital sluggishness. But after a few days of mild to moderate diarrhea we started rethinking our food choices. We eliminated all the fresh produce from our meals. This made no difference. I even backed away from the restaurant and bought cereal and yogurt from the commissary, but this also had little effect on my body’s purging. A week of this is going to be plenty.
The festival of Devali, the goddess of light happens in India the last part of October. This is the biggest celebration of the year and it goes on for four days. One of the recent trends in the celebration is the lighting of “fancy crackers.” It used to be sparklers and colorful fountains but in recent years the entire city goes crazy with loud booming explosive fire crackers. The blasting goes on for hours. The working class of India, whose average salary is about $150 a month, spends millions on these banal explosives. It really sounded like a war being waged from our hotel room. Fortunately Ruth never travels without ear plugs, so we witnessed this famous Indian celebration hunkered down in our room, attempting to muffle the deafening sound.
The festival of Devali is also celebrated by lighting oil candles. The restaurant was beautiful as these whispers of light lined the window cells and perimeter of the gracious room. Ruth and I were the only ones in the restaurant this particular night. We were seated right by the window looking out on the courtyard that was also lit up with colorful lights. The place was really slow during the holidays. I was not feeling well and ordered only a seven-up for my dinner. This was Ruth’s birthday and she was feeling a little let down partly because I was so self focused on my painful condition and there was no sense of celebration honoring her day. Our conversation was strained so with a feeling of heaviness I got up to return to our room. My long hair brushed into the lit candles and unbeknownst to me, provided additional fire works. Ruth fortunately noticed that my hair was on fire and immediately smothered the flames with her shawl. It was quite comical, but I found no humor in the event. My nerves were shot from the trauma of surgery, and painful recovery, and I went into shock realizing just how close I came to utter disaster. When I got to our room, I covered my singed, stinky hair with a bandana, took a valium sleeping aid and curling up in the fetal position, rocked my miserable self to sleep.
The next morning, after a very good night’s sleep, we were able to talk about how each of us was feeling. At this point I could laugh at the previous night’s debacle, and thanking her from the bottom of my heart for her quick saving action, we both felt relieved and back on our sisterly track.
Most of this week at Woodrose was spent resting on the comfortable bed, writing and reading e-mails, reading this great book, Shantaram, about an escaped convict who flees to India. He falls in love with Bombay and relays one extraordinary tale after another. It's written by Gregory David Roberts, and is a book I highly recommend. Not being able to seek out adventures myself, ( are you kidding, I couldn't even stray far from a toilet!) I found great delight in reading about another's love affair with India.
The Salon at Woodrose proved to be excellent in the treatments offered. I went in for a pedicure. It was such a healing experience. The ladies working there were from a northern state in India, they were Oriental looking and just exquisitely beautiful. They were completely present in the treatments offered, and so attentive to my well being and comfort. I availed myself to their healing hands receiving facial, scalp massage, and manicure each on a different day.
One of my main concerns during this week was how I was going to handle the return passage to home. I still could not bend my knee comfortably. Mostly I needed to keep my leg up on the bed or chair as the pain became really intense when I sat for any length of time. Our trip home would take place starting on Tuesday Nov. 4, Election Day. This was exactly two weeks after my surgery. Ruth wisely counseled me to not dwell on this future event but just take each day as it comes, and work at increasing my range of motion. The day before we were to fly home I had the staples removed from my incision. There it was, this Frankenstein scar, six inches in length, tight and sore. I was instructed to keep the wound unbandaged and allow the fresh air to aid in healing. My last day of PT they had me lay on my stomach, which felt really weird and uncomfortable, and had me bend my knee back beyond 90 degrees. The young therapist who I’d worked with some, assisted this stretch really cranking on it, a bit too aggressively I felt, but got it to bend further. I was told to add this stretch to the repertoire of exercises they had established for me. Of course my knee responded to this extreme bending by swelling up good and stiff, with the pain increasing. Just what I needed before I traveling. This was the last of my guided time. From this point on I was on my own to heal and continue my strengthening and rehabilitation. But first I had to undergo the long journey back home.
Friday, November 14, 2008
A Week of Care at Wockhardt Hospital
It felt good to be back in my own room. Ruth was certainly glad to have me close by where she could keep an eye on me. Dr. Sanjay Pai burst into the room with his entourage of junior surgeons and charismatic presence. “Your knee was the worst thing I’d ever seen for a woman your age. The repaired ACL was crumpled and torn, it was a mess. This is why the surgery took longer than I assumed. And as for your R knee, don’t waste your hard earned money on anything other than a full replacement when the time comes to do it. The x-ray shows that everything went extremely well. Now it’s up to you. I will send in the physical therapists and you can begin your rehab. In the United States you would be preparing to go home by tomorrow, here we look after you for at least a week.” Then he was gone.
I was bed bound with a catheter, my knee somewhat numbed by the epidural line with pain medication administered through a connected canister. I was also receiving oral pain meds, along with anti nausea, and anti vomiting meds every few hours. Sam & Sally the PT’s walked in and introduced themselves. I was instructed to roll a towel and place it under my knee, then tighten my quads and push down with the back of my knee into the towel. This movement elicited a soaring pain, really rough and raw. Then with my leg flat on the bed I was instructed to focus on my heel and move it smoothly up to form a painful bend then down again, back and forth. Then lastly they taught me to roll over on my right side with a pillow between my legs for support and sleep and rest in this position to give my back side a much needed break as I’d been lying in this position for 24 hours or more. They were both extremely professional and unhurried. The Doctor’s rushed in and out but the PT’s were there to spend time, explain the healing process, field my questions, and establish from the get go a strong physical therapy program.
As the hours ticked on I was feeling queasy and weak, with sleep my only relief. Food was brought to the room but I had no appetite for anything other than water and the apple juice the hospital provided.
The next day the nurses bathed me. Being helpless and bathed by an empathetic care giver gives one the feeling that there is infinite kindness in the world. Sam came in and showed me how to use the walker which in turn allowed the catheter to be removed and I was now free to roam about my room. As the day progressed, so did my nausea. It was very miserable. I realized that I was experiencing the effects of all the strong pain medication I had been pumped with. This condition of extreme nausea is no doubt what the hospitals protocol tried to prevent, by not administering the copious amounts of drugs I needed that first night in ICU. Ruth got on line and researched my symptoms, and it was suggested to get off the drugs before a chronic condition of nausea sets in. So I told the nurses that I wanted to lay off the drugs for a while. They obliged and said to ring the bell if I needed anything. The pain was still tolerable because of the epidural medication that kept my right leg numb.
The epidural was removed 72 hours after insertion to prevent infection. As the sensation returned to my leg, the deep soaring pain became extremely acute. An internist came in and recommended returning to oral pain meds and shots through my IV port, upon request. So I was going back and forth between lots of pain meds, then none, kind of a yoyo game, but I think the 20 hour reprieve helped to get my system cleaned out enough to mitigate the upset condition I’d been enveloped in.
But pain is the name of this game. I thought about what it would be like to have had both knees replaced and I absolutely shuddered to contemplate twice the pain and the compounded condition of having two fiery hot legs to rehab and get around on. There’s absolutely no way I could have handled anymore than what this one knee was inflicting.
By day five the nausea was abating and I felt the first desire for food since surgery. The meals would come up from the kitchen regularly. Deepa is the kitchen manager of the hospital. She would make her daily rounds checking in and taking requests from her kitchen. Mostly the food went back hardly touched. It felt cruel to be wasting this food knowing that just outside this building were thousands of people not to mention feral dogs who would so appreciate this sustenance. So Ruth took it upon herself to bag up the uneaten scraps and would make her daily rounds outside to feed the hungriest dogs she could find.
Describing human functions on a personal basis is much easier through a key board. I've been unable to "pass motion” since the traumatic experience of surgery. Everyday the sweet nurses have asked and as the days have ticked on to number five I've had to admit that my bottom is locked up tighter than Fort Browning. I haven't had much of an appetite so the problem hadn't dominated my efforts. But yesterday I knew it was time to move this mountain. In the morning I requested a suppository. An hour later with not so much as the sound of gas to prove efficacy, I asked for an enema. At home I love enemas. I went for6 months and gave myself coffee enemies most mornings. It gets the days going off with a literal blast. The enema that was brought here however was this small tube of clear jelly that the nurse implanted in two seconds. Still nothing.......So now the Doctor's are taking an interest and asking me every time they make their rounds. Have you had motion yet? One of the nicest Doc's suggested MOM's remedy, Milk of Magnesia. I've also had problems with indigestion and heart burn so this sounded like a welcoming approach. I drank a good jigger of it, slammed down a quart of water, and still.......nothing. This was getting serious. Chemicals and drugs have had full reign of my innards for almost a week now, I'm feeling toxic and bordering on desperate to eliminate. So last night I asked the nurse if the hospital contained somewhere in its hidden places an enema bag that I could use on my own for the evening. "Ohhh" she said, shaking her head, "that's the old fashioned way. I haven't seen one of those in years." Well please inquire if there is one still hanging around please. This is what I need to solve my dilemma. She retuned an hour later, beaming. She had a stainless steel canister with tubing attached at the bottom and yes an insertion point. She wanted to help me but I begged her to just let me be. We have a small coffee maker in our room so Ruth got some hot water going with our filtered water. I won't go into all the details. But trying to have an enema with only one functioning leg and a small bathroom with no room to stretch out and let the water flow presented it's share of challenges. No one would ever confuse us with McGuiver but Ruth was totally devoted to this project and I can say that this morning I’ll have a positive response to this question of motion.
After enema magic, my energy picked up. Releasing all the toxicity of surgical trauma and drugs brought renewed vigor to my aching body. I really started looking forward to being released from the hospital and checking in to the Wood rose Club. Tonight was Pizza night at the hospital. Gosh but the thought of Dominoes Pizza and a coke got the juices flowing.
As the week in Wockhardt was coming to a close, I felt so fortunate to have had such good care from so many skilled and compassionate care givers. Early in the week Sam, my PT came in with the x-rays of my knee before and after surgery. It was such a remarkable picture. My knee which was crippled with arthritis and painful bone on bone was replaced with this rock solid bionic joint. Again I feel just so lucky that this procedure was available to me.
Suhas came in the last day to take us to Woodrose. I asked him if there were any other charges from the hospital that had accrued throughout the week. He assured me that the $7,000 I paid covered everything. It is remarkable and in sharp contrast to the medical costs we pay in the States. For $7,000 the hospital provided transportation to and from the airport, all of my pre testing including x-rays and MRI’s for both knees, my surgery and night in ICU, a week of care in a very gracious hospital suite with meals for both Ruth and myself, all of the medication including enough for the week at Woodrose, Physical Therapy everyday and a Walker and Cane.
Friday, October 31, 2008
I C U in pain
I awoke early just as Ruth walked in. She found a way to sneak into the ICU ward, sleuth that she is. I was feeling so much better. The intense pain from the night before had abated, and having had a few hours of sleep I felt that I had survived the worst of the ordeal. I was offered juice or breakfast, but all I wanted was a few sips of water. A sweet nurse came in and said she would sponge bathe me. So Ruth left and I submitted to her skilled hands. I lay there while she scrubbed and rinsed my body. I had a catheter and she cleaned this area with betodine. Then she combed my hair and allowed me to brush my teeth. I felt half way human. The hours ticked by. A few Doctor’s were making their rounds and I was told to keep pumping my ankle, this I did faithfully, like a prayer wheel turning and turning so my ankle was pumping back and forth over and over.
Around noon I was told that I was going back to my own hospital room. I was unplugged from all the beeping gadgets. The pain med pump was staying with me along with an oxygen tank. I was wheeled out on my bed, but first I was brought to x-ray. I wasn’t looking forward to having to move out of bed for the x-rays but fortunately they were able to take the necessary pictures without having to get off my bed.
When we got to my room , they wheeled out my former bed and I could stay all tucked in and cozy in the same bed used in ICU. From this point on, for the next 7 days, the hospital and staff did everything possible to aid and care for me in a very kind and professional manner during this first week of recovery.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Surgery India Style
I was awakened on the day of surgery by a sharp pang in my neck. It was a searing pain that kept my neck in spasm throughout the day. There was a bit of unease settling in because of this really. What an auspicious way to start this already dreadful day. The surgery was scheduled to start at 1 pm. But the gurney didn’t arrive until close to 3. Ruth and I spent those pre surgery potentially fretful hours watching the Simpson’s, seeking comic relief. She also rubbed my neck through out the day, helping the pain a great deal.
I really didn’t feel too nervous. I had implicit trust in my surgeon Dr. Sanjay Pai. I made this decision months ago, and now it was time to surrender. I gave Ruth the thumbs up as I was wheeled down to the “theatre”, as the OR is referred to at Wockhardt.
I’ve practiced mindful breathing for many years. At a time like this, it is invaluable. I use my breathe to breathe in God’s love, and then I breathe out God’s love, sharing it with the world. I breathe in God’s healing power, and I breathe out God’s healing power, and so on. So I was fairly calm and positive as I was wheeled through the corridors and down the elevator.
I was changed into a sterile gown and wheeled into the theatre, where it was freezing cold. Here two anesthesiologists attempted to start an IV. They were examining my arm and the small veins I possess. It’s always been a challenge for medical personal to hook me up. The man who seemed to be a student attempted to stick me. It was botched. I thought “great, I’m being used as a practice dummy.” After much discussion he tried again and hit my vein. The next task was to start the epidural. They had me shift to the operating table. It was cold and hard. They had me sit up, opened my back side and sprayed this ice cold aerosol anti bacterial liquid. It was impossible not to shiver. But I was urgently and not too gently admonished to hold perfectly still. The same student attempted to put in my epidural. He found the spot and I felt a huge bolt of pain sore up my spine. I collapsed and was rolled onto my side again none too gently. Oxygen was administered and then another attempt was made to get it in place. This time they found the correct pathway down my spinal column and an immediate sense of numbing was felt running down my legs. I was rolled onto my back where my arms were brought out to each side, crucifixion style; An IV on my left, blood pressure and pulse gauges on my right and heart monitors on my chest. I was asked if I wanted to be sedated so that I’d sleep through the surgery. I assured them that yes indeed put me out for this, especially since as all of this was going on I heard the sound of the saws and drills being tested that were soon to be applied to my very own flesh. I drifted off to sleep
I awoke just as the surgery started. My Dr. Sanjay Pai had not made his presence known to me but I was pretty sure I heard his commanding voice, beyond the screen that was placed between me and the surgical team. In the periphery were the pain guys, who by this time were totally bored and the Dr. sitting closest to me was gently snoring. I heard cell phones ringing and being answered, “hello, yea I’m in surgery, call you later.” Click.
I lay awake during the entire procedure. The sounds of the machinery cutting through my bone tissue, the smell of my flesh and bone being rendered will never be forgotten. At one point I heard Dr. Pai’s voice say “no, that’s not right, we’ll have to do that again.” The surgery seemed to go on forever. My neck and arms were very achy and I attempted to move them around some, seeking a measure of relief. No one, not once, checked in on me or sought in any way to comfort me or administer more medicine so that I could sleep. The thought crossed my mind that these very interesting, brilliant Indian people simply do not possess qualities of empathy or compassion. It’s just not a part of their framework. This surgery was all about my knee being replaced. They were totally tuned into that. My comfort and mental well being were not a priority. And perhaps the fact that I’m a woman and the entire surgical team were men, made it even less a priority that any care be given to my physical and emotional needs.
Finally, I was told that the surgery was just about over and the wound would be stapled. I asked if everything went all right, and I was given a perfunctory affirmative, yes, everything is fine.
Dr. Pai did not address me at this point either. As the dismantling of all the equipment transpired and the various weights I was held down with were removed I became fraught with convulsive shivers. I was so cold. A hose blasting hot air was tucked under my sheet and I clung to this with all of my draining might.
I was wheeled into post op and left entirely alone until Ruth appeared. She had that wild look of fear, fatigue, and fight in her eyes and I knew then that this surgery was as hard on her as on me. By this time it was 6:30, three and a half hours since she had last seen me, and no one was telling her anything either.
She went looking for a Dr. who would impart some information. Finally the older anesthesiologist who had snored through my surgery came over and said that everything went fine.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Indian Exposure
We arrived in Bangalore India around 4 am India time on a 10 hour direct flight out of Heathrow. India is 12 1/2 hours a head of our time in Colorado. Immigration was a breeze but the baggage claim was excruciatingly slow. The three hundred plus weary travelers from our all night flight congregated around the baggage belt that sqealed like a pig and watched, like zombies, as one bag every minute or so presented itself on the belt. Finally our one checked bag appeared. We were waived through customs and proceeded through the gate in search of our driver that Moe promised would be waiting for us. No sooner did we exit the terminal when a young man asked if we were Susan and Ruth. Now that's service! His name is Suhas and is the guest relations officer at Wockhardt Hospital. He came to the airport with a driver at this early hour, 4am, to make certain we were cared for. When our plane arrived he called immigration and got a discription of our clothing. We were quicly in route. He was warm, friendly and graciously fielded our myriad of questions . The dawn was cracking as we made our way through the sprawling and immense city, affording us our first glimpse of India.
Bangalore is a burgeoning city of 12 million. Four years ago it held 8 million so the growth here is far too rapid for infrastructure to keep up with. Bangalore by India standards is a prosperous city, nevertheless many areas of the city are extremely poor. Tons of rubbish and rubble line the streets where many find their homes. We drove through an area with modern high rise office structures. This is the IT capital of India. Many of the jobs outsourced from the US are found here. An hours drive found us in the hospital district, where we drove up to the front doors of Wockhardt. We were escorted to the 7th of the hospitals 8 floors into a large rather inviting hospital room containing two beds, a small fridge, desk with computer, table, two chairs, and private bath. It smelled strongly of moth balls. Suhas gave us his cell number with strict assurance to call him with any questions or concerns. We showered then waited for the tests we had scheduled to transpire.
The paper work was refreshingly minimal. Basically they got my name, marital status, birth date and religion. Being disconnected from any religious organization I left this last question blank. Two different times individual nurses came back and asked me to please verfiy my religion. Not wanting to offend I begrudgingly agreed to state, "Christian." There was an obvious sign of relief emanating from their sweet faces. Dr Sanjay Pai, my venerable surgeon, walked into our room and gave me a quick preview. He stated quite emphatically that I was too young for knee reconstruction as prosthesis only last 10-15 years. I told him about my constant pain and instablility. I've traveled all this way and I want both knees examined with MRI. I was swiftly taken down to x-ray. At this point I was feeling a bit mifted and a little freaked and felt like fleeing the hospital using this time to travel through India and forget this whole medical tourism business. A short itme later I received two MRI's. Blood tests and urine samples were taken and at least three times this first day my blood pressure was measured. In the afternoon Dr. Sanjay Pai returned and stated that the results of the tests revealed both knees arthritic with the left in advanced stage of degeneration. We discussed various prosthesis and it was his opinion that my left knee is certainly bad enough to receive a TKR.
After he left Ruth and I discussed my condition and options. I firmly beleive that surgery is a last option. But my R knee, though not nearly as painful as my L is in pretty bad shape. It tweaks, burns, pops, and gives out on me. This is my opportunity to correct my disability. I've traveled across the globe at great expense, taking the necesary time off work for this trip as will as the lengthy rehabilitaion time. Who knows if and when I'll ever have this opportunity again.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Glimpse of London

As the whole world and we now know, London is a most amazing city. Our hotel room is near Heathrow which is many miles from the downtown core. But public transportation is very efficient. The "tube" or subway gets you just about anywhere one wants to go in the city. It's user friendly and utilized by throngs of locals and tourists alike. Yesterday we took and unguided walking tour to Buckingham Palace, Westminster Abbey and Cathedral, St. James Parkway and along the Thames River. The architecture is beyond awe. We were in the presence of over a 1000 years of history. But it's the people watching that is the real kick. What a cosmopolitan arena. People from the entire globe gather to this epic city. And everyone it seemed was having the time of their lives. From the start we noticed just how good natured Londoners are. Before we would even ask for directions someone was offering advice. It didn't take long to find out though that everyone had a different idea of which direction or bus we should take.
People seem so much happier here and in better shape. Of the thousands we observed reveling through the city few were over weight. People were not necesarily super athletic, or pencil thin, but rather quite normal. Fashion rules and the varied attire and wild and chic hair cuts added much to our delight. When Europeans talk about holidays they are referring to the long vacation and travel time workers enjoy every year rather than the orgy of mandatory spending and eating we annually and frantically participate in. Pubs close down here at the reasonable hour of 11pm, not 2am. There are lots of restaurants, but way fewer fast food options. Lovers are everywhere and unabashed in diplaying affection. It seems to be a more casual relaxed way of being that our hurried lifestyle prevents. Faces are softer, quick to smile and engage in interaction. A casual observation reveals a refreshing lightness and a love of life look and feel from the managerie of people congregating in this grand city.
We knew before arriving that London is very expensive. But we didn't expect the hotel to charge extremely high prices for amenities we're not used to paying for, especially when we paid so dearly for our tiny room. Internet service, 10 pounds for a half hour, an extra tea bag? 3 pounds, airport/hotel shuttle which is a ten minute ride/4 pounds each. The exchange rate is the best it's been in years for the US dollar. But it's still $1.70 for each pound.
The news here as everywhere is the devastated world economy. One of the biggest stories is Obama's presidential campaign. The Brits and their papers love him. They predict and hope for a landslide victory and feel his ability to govern and lead will set the States and the interconnected world on a far better course.
Today we slept in until noon. Ahhhh, holidays! Ruth got her hair cut and I got a massage. This evening we saw the theatre production, "Stomp." Percussion created by janitorial tools; brooms, trash cans and lids, match boxes and plastic bags. It was so creative and loads of fun. Everyone left happy and revved. Afterward we found a pub and toasted our farewell to London and the start of our Indian adventure.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Preparations & Posterings
As the economy in the US reveals the imaginary and decrepit value in which we have placed our trust , we experience moments of wary upon leaving our home soil. What if during our time away this “sucker” goes down. We could be stranded. Our assets could be frozen. Who knows what and on and on.
If things are about to get really rough here, I want two strong legs to walk on. This is one way to achieve that miracle. Ruth is smart, savvy and a true lover of adventure and travel. So we’re going, but of course. In every life there are times when one casts their fate to the winds, surely this is one for me.
Moe, our honorable medical tourist guide, arranged for us to stay at a 5 star resort in Goa. It was horribly expensive, especially by India standards, $700 for four nights including all meals. The Rough guide to Southern India tells us that $10 a night will buy one a sufficient room near the beach. We also want to search out our own special places and meals. His featured resort would totally insulate us from any participation in real travel. So we’re on our own for finding accommodations. Our e-mails have turned up a response from a small inn near the beach, Heaven Goa. They have our reservation.